Mina!

A tough question I seem to ask myself over and over and over again.  I know what I have to do, but I always complain of being too tired this or too tired that.  And yet I can find a million things to do to procastinate.  Like blog ;)

I took a whole 10 minutes to sit in the dark and ask myself, self... what is the skeleton in the closet that has been sitting there the longest.  No surprise it would be the beating up of myself over my weight and how I look.   Resolution... well if I had one I wouldn't be talking about it again would I.  But the truth of the matter is this, it absolutely is the oldest skeleton in my closet.  Ever since the first Pageant I entered.  Which is why I am seriously thinking about entering another pageant in August.  Two birds killed with one stone.  Even if I wouldn't win, I know that if I entered it this time I would understand the politics and know that to win you have to play the game.  And if the game isn't won, it's not because I didn't play the game well, it's because it's a game that's not meant for me to play.

Now how the hell do I get into that swimsuit?